Life... some random thoughts (again)

Good time to vent... I think that I am starting to figure some things out. Happiness, for example, is based primarily on our own perceptions of reality. How we perceive everyday actions and behaviors, including our own, seemingly has a big impact upon our mood. Lets say, for this instance, that if I am paranoid about my friends and the people I love, in regards to trust, it would be difficult for me to live a happy life. I'd always feel as if someone was going behind my back...

Friendship. That's a fun topic to talk about. Friends certainly come and go. People live and move on. Things change. That is simply a common theme in life. Friendship, I would argue, is sometimes harder to maintain than a romantic relationship. The dynamics are just different. You aren't friends, or good friends, with someone because you are attracted to them, or always that you share the same interests, or because you want to be with them all the time. Good friends, like good romantic relationships, are however you make them out to be.A sense of balance and peace is difficult to achieve, and even more difficult to maintain.

Though I am still in the process of figuring out how to do this myself, I believe that the answer lies within yourself. The ability to be comfortable with yourself, and to be loving and trusting. When this is achieved, maintaining healthy relationships become alooooootttt easier, I would have to imagine.... A sense of balance and peace should equal some level of happiness as well.Someday, we all have to make decisions that will take us one way or another in life. Not just in terms of career direction, but the direction of our selves, what kind of person are we building up to be.

Every action, every person we meet, everything that happens in your life adds another small piece to your ever accumulating self. It's like the idea of the butterfly effect, one small action can cause a ripple effect in the future; though it is very well possible that we never find out what that eventual effect was. Maybe a simple pat on the head of a small child could mean the difference between becoming a juvenile delinquent to being a future honors student in college. That could seem out there... but the possibilities are endless.

Our reality... What do we value, and why? Why is our culture so obsessed with obtaining and worshiping money? Is it the objects that we want; the materials? Are the materials supposed to make us happy? Why are we so unhappy then? We really need to take a look at ourselves, at our loved ones, to those around us, and to those around the world. We need to recreate our perspective on life, especially when we are sweating the little things. We need to realize that we are all in this existence together. To think that sooooo many people seem to be "okay" with letting billions of people starve around the world just so they can live their comfortable little lives... this scares me.

I'm fine with not having much, but I realize that the little that I have, the little that I am content with and appreciate greatly, is still far more than probably what 80% of the worlds population doesn't have. I feel like I will take this mentality with me as I age, and won't become materialistic-zombie. Hopefully, instead, I can use whatever I make to do something good in the world. Call me naive. Call me idealistic. Call me a dreamer. Nothing spectacular is ever done without someone dreaming about it...

Peace and love,
-Daryl Simons Jr.

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